:: Teenage Angst ::



Turn off the TV set

Behind the clouds
Lies the world of dreams
Fairies laughin out loud
Elves swimmin' on the streams

Whenever I'm alone
They will all fetch me
and fill my head with songs
Tiny fairies singing in glee

Late at night
She walks into my dreams
We float around together
No end for you and me

...In my world of dreams

And when my dream is over
I'd be sitting here waiting
Holding my four leaf clover
But if the fairies sees me crying

They'd take me back
to my world of dreams.
**11*09**

Joys of dying

Take a deep breath
don't mind the threat
Coz of you would die
No one will cry

You're nobody
You're so filthy
Bury yourself
I'll cry for myself

Everything seemed wrong
Since you came along
So drift away
Please don't stay

Be freed...
**11*09**

Whispers in the wind

Whispers in the wind
Echoes in the wind
Voices in the rain
I hear cries of pain

Tremors on the ground
Violence all around
We all hunger for peace
Let the fightings cease

So many people dying
So many children crying
You're all suffering
For the cost of living

My forgotten misery
Hellish agony
Awakened from the grave
There are countless souls to save

Whispers in the wind
Echoes in the wind
Denial of reality
and life's cruelty
**11*09**

Escape

...to a place where no one's in despair
...to a place where all is fair

...to a far away land
...where I can freely stand

...take me there, take me nowhere
...to where I can live forever

...to a place where there is no sorrow
...to where clear springs flow

...I got to find a way
...I got to fade away

... I must escape!
**11*09**

Non-Toxic Lunacy

Trashed emotions
Sickening alienation
seeking comprehension
Leaving apprehensions

False empathy
Scarred reality
remains of what used to be
Living in anxiety

Lacerated heart
torn apart
Right from the start
A permanent scar

Teenage angst
Living with the past
How long will this last?

Taken for the granted
Upsurge of the calmed
Dazed of the confused
Wanting to be wanted
**11*09**

Echoing Silence

I hear nothing
but the sound made by
the wind passing
I speak of nothing
and nobody hears me
murmuring

Guided by the sun's light
I see things clearly
Yet I can't understand
any thought, any word
of any one

Stranded in mischief town
Besides aching's road
Corner hurt street
I got nowhere to go

I can't hear anything
but the echoing silence
it bounces back
...bounces back
**11*09**

*Sixteen year old boy waiting for his eyes to shut close

I don't need your
sweet caresses
But I want it too!
I don't need to see
you care
Who cares anyway?
I don't need your
lips
If they weren't meant
for kissing
And I don't need
to feel your love
My heart isn't mending
...anymore!...

Because I'm already dead
Blood no longer
runs through my veins
...there's no more pain
cause I was slain
and I don't need your
sympathy.
**11*09**

Of leeches and men

never be seem to be sated
gave you all, you ask for more
say it wasn't intended
what is all this for?

you rob me of all I own
spend my hard earned pay
you don'tknow what is known
I worked for it all day

all you want is to receive
coz I couldn't dare say
there's nothing more to give
so will you please stay away

Go ahead take everything
Go on suck us dry
Here I lie with nothing
Suck me dry till I die
**11*09**

*The dying dead

cast away... breathless
cold, frozen..., amidst the
howling storm...
asleep...cemetery gates
tombstone...obituary
...resting in peace
...farewell... perish
...lifeless
...spirit's gone
... passed away
not gonna stay...
underneath the ground...
...silence...
...lights out
...needless... beside the
Angel of death...
... thoughtless
...floats up, falls down...
gone... so long
unravished bride of quietness
not moving, nor responding
... nor responding
...goodbye
**11*09**

**Shadow of life

A smouldering mess
Realm of drakness
Down in thy depths
Die a thousand deaths

An evil yet unseen
Who knows what we've been
And what I intend to find
Labyrinth of the mind

My dark heaven
Eternal torment
Wasted soul he gave
to a nameless grave

Shadow of life
With a reaper's knife
Live to remain
And the shadow was pain
**11*09**

Free Verse
(a poem of a child for his mother)

How can I say I'm sorry
When I no longer breathe?
How can I say I love you
when I'm already dead?

...and if I call you
will you hear me?
no! not even a faint sound
just morning breeze

How will I know you've forgiven me
When you're six feet under?
How will I feel your love
when you're gone?

...and if I whisper
will you listen?
I called your name
but there was no answer?

... too late
**11*09**

No regrets

You can't say goodbye
that there'll be no
second time
Or wish we never met
and say you have no regrets

I can't just die
leaving things behind
all that was dear to me
all that I longed to see
and tell you I have no regrets

What peace would it be
to be without regrets
Knowing you made the right choices,
that you were not just taking chances
and say you have no regrets

Forever's far from here
Yesterday's just a step behind
How I wish I have nothing to fear
Knowing that you wouldn't mind
Coz we had no regrets
**11*09**

The Untold Retold story of everyday life

After years of investigation
and the conversation;
guilty or innocent?

After years of inquisition
and the interrogation;
he was sentenced to death...

damnable?

He raped his daughter
and killed his mother
but they condemned another...

doom.
**11*09**

ache

not just bleeding
not just sweling
it's also aching

got a hole on my shoulder
and wounds on my fingers
it got deeper and deeper

never shed my skin
never close my coffin
like the pain within

is there a way to ease the ache?
not for anyone's sake..
before the thread of sanity breaks

...never close my coffin
never stop the burning
...ache
**11*09**

try and fail

I'm afraid to try
coz I'm afraid to fail
what I do know is
your love isn't for sale
**11*09**

eternity

come what may
however which way
forever and a day

until the sun
refuse to shine
we are one

you and me
is all there is
for all eternity

we said it would last
nothin' can keep us apart
now it's whole past

you and me
will never be
...eternity?

thought it was forever
now it's over
remember me never...

...eternity?
**11*09**

dare

Can you get out
of life alive?
there's the abyss
why won't you dive?

If the world turn
it's back on you
how would you feel?
will you thow
sticks on it's back?

If she said rape me again
what would you do?
Is it fun to see
someone in pain?

Can you die
without dying?
**11*09**

If only

If only words could
reach your heart
without me uttering them
If only the wind
will carry my whispers
and let the breeze
sneak into your mind
If only I could speak
my mind and tell you
how much I care
Then how easy will it be
for me to let you know
how I feel
and then I could say
"I love you!"
and it's for real
just by touching your face

and if only you'll say
fou feel the same way
I do...
I could tell the world
that I want nothing more
coz I need no one else
but you!

* inspired by Sugar Hiccup
** contains excerpts from Asphyx

Rain fell and came down
Jay at 6:49 PM