tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-59493542011-05-30T06:19:36.808-07:00to see the world in a grain of sand...Jayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13505349940327162621noreply@blogger.comBlogger11100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-5949354.post-1067828307722426572003-11-02T18:49:00.000-08:002003-11-02T18:58:29.790-08:00<strong>:: Teenage Angst ::</strong> <br /> <br /> <br /> <br /><strong>Turn off the TV set</strong> <br /> <br /><em>Behind the clouds <br />Lies the world of dreams <br />Fairies laughin out loud <br />Elves swimmin' on the streams <br /> <br />Whenever I'm alone <br />They will all fetch me <br />and fill my head with songs <br />Tiny fairies singing in glee <br /> <br />Late at night <br />She walks into my dreams <br />We float around together <br />No end for you and me <br /> <br />...In my world of dreams <br /> <br />And when my dream is over <br />I'd be sitting here waiting <br />Holding my four leaf clover <br />But if the fairies sees me crying <br /> <br />They'd take me back <br />to my world of dreams.</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br /><strong>Joys of dying</strong> <br /> <br /><em>Take a deep breath <br />don't mind the threat <br />Coz of you would die <br />No one will cry <br /> <br />You're nobody <br />You're so filthy <br />Bury yourself <br />I'll cry for myself <br /> <br />Everything seemed wrong <br />Since you came along <br />So drift away <br />Please don't stay <br /> <br />Be freed...</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br /><strong>Whispers in the wind</strong> <br /> <br /><em>Whispers in the wind <br />Echoes in the wind <br />Voices in the rain <br />I hear cries of pain <br /> <br />Tremors on the ground <br />Violence all around <br />We all hunger for peace <br />Let the fightings cease <br /> <br />So many people dying <br />So many children crying <br />You're all suffering <br />For the cost of living <br /> <br />My forgotten misery <br />Hellish agony <br />Awakened from the grave <br />There are countless souls to save <br /> <br />Whispers in the wind <br />Echoes in the wind <br />Denial of reality <br />and life's cruelty</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br /><strong>Escape</strong> <br /> <br /><em>...to a place where no one's in despair <br />...to a place where all is fair <br /> <br />...to a far away land <br />...where I can freely stand <br /> <br />...take me there, take me nowhere <br />...to where I can live forever <br /> <br />...to a place where there is no sorrow <br />...to where clear springs flow <br /> <br />...I got to find a way <br />...I got to fade away <br /> <br />... I must escape!</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br /><strong>Non-Toxic Lunacy</strong> <br /> <br /><em>Trashed emotions <br />Sickening alienation <br />seeking comprehension <br />Leaving apprehensions <br /> <br />False empathy <br />Scarred reality <br />remains of what used to be <br />Living in anxiety <br /> <br />Lacerated heart <br />torn apart <br />Right from the start <br />A permanent scar <br /> <br />Teenage angst <br />Living with the past <br />How long will this last? <br /> <br />Taken for the granted <br />Upsurge of the calmed <br />Dazed of the confused <br />Wanting to be wanted</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br /><strong>Echoing Silence</strong> <br /> <br /><em>I hear nothing <br />but the sound made by <br />the wind passing <br />I speak of nothing <br />and nobody hears me <br />murmuring <br /> <br />Guided by the sun's light <br />I see things clearly <br />Yet I can't understand <br />any thought, any word <br />of any one <br /> <br />Stranded in mischief town <br />Besides aching's road <br />Corner hurt street <br />I got nowhere to go <br /> <br />I can't hear anything <br />but the echoing silence <br />it bounces back <br />...bounces back</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br />*<strong>Sixteen year old boy waiting for his eyes to shut close</strong> <br /> <br /><em>I don't need your <br />sweet caresses <br />But I want it too! <br />I don't need to see <br />you care <br />Who cares anyway? <br />I don't need your <br />lips <br />If they weren't meant <br />for kissing <br />And I don't need <br />to feel your love <br />My heart isn't mending <br />...anymore!... <br /> <br />Because I'm already dead <br />Blood no longer <br />runs through my veins <br />...there's no more pain <br />cause I was slain <br />and I don't need your <br />sympathy.</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br /><strong>Of leeches and men</strong> <br /> <br /><em>never be seem to be sated <br />gave you all, you ask for more <br />say it wasn't intended <br />what is all this for? <br /> <br />you rob me of all I own <br />spend my hard earned pay <br />you don'tknow what is known <br />I worked for it all day <br /> <br />all you want is to receive <br />coz I couldn't dare say <br />there's nothing more to give <br />so will you please stay away <br /> <br />Go ahead take everything <br />Go on suck us dry <br />Here I lie with nothing <br />Suck me dry till I die</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br />*<strong>The dying dead</strong> <br /> <br /><em>cast away... breathless <br />cold, frozen..., amidst the <br />howling storm... <br />asleep...cemetery gates <br />tombstone...obituary <br />...resting in peace <br />...farewell... perish <br />...lifeless <br />...spirit's gone <br />... passed away <br />not gonna stay... <br />underneath the ground... <br />...silence... <br />...lights out <br />...needless... beside the <br />Angel of death... <br />... thoughtless <br />...floats up, falls down... <br />gone... so long <br />unravished bride of quietness <br />not moving, nor responding <br />... nor responding <br />...goodbye</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br />**<strong>Shadow of life</strong> <br /> <br /><em>A smouldering mess <br />Realm of drakness <br />Down in thy depths <br />Die a thousand deaths <br /> <br />An evil yet unseen <br />Who knows what we've been <br />And what I intend to find <br />Labyrinth of the mind <br /> <br />My dark heaven <br />Eternal torment <br />Wasted soul he gave <br />to a nameless grave <br /> <br />Shadow of life <br />With a reaper's knife <br />Live to remain <br />And the shadow was pain</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br /><strong>Free Verse</strong> <br />(a poem of a child for his mother) <br /> <br /><em>How can I say I'm sorry <br />When I no longer breathe? <br />How can I say I love you <br />when I'm already dead? <br /> <br />...and if I call you <br />will you hear me? <br />no! not even a faint sound <br />just morning breeze <br /> <br />How will I know you've forgiven me <br />When you're six feet under? <br />How will I feel your love <br />when you're gone? <br /> <br />...and if I whisper <br />will you listen? <br />I called your name <br />but there was no answer? <br /> <br />... too late</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br /><strong>No regrets</strong> <br /> <br /><em>You can't say goodbye <br />that there'll be no <br />second time <br />Or wish we never met <br />and say you have no regrets <br /> <br />I can't just die <br />leaving things behind <br />all that was dear to me <br />all that I longed to see <br />and tell you I have no regrets <br /> <br />What peace would it be <br />to be without regrets <br />Knowing you made the right choices, <br />that you were not just taking chances <br />and say you have no regrets <br /> <br />Forever's far from here <br />Yesterday's just a step behind <br />How I wish I have nothing to fear <br />Knowing that you wouldn't mind <br />Coz we had no regrets</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br /><strong>The Untold Retold story of everyday life</strong> <br /> <br /><em>After years of investigation <br />and the conversation; <br />guilty or innocent? <br /> <br />After years of inquisition <br />and the interrogation; <br />he was sentenced to death... <br /> <br />damnable? <br /> <br />He raped his daughter <br />and killed his mother <br />but they condemned another... <br /> <br />doom.</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br /><strong>ache</strong> <br /> <br /><em>not just bleeding <br />not just sweling <br />it's also aching <br /> <br />got a hole on my shoulder <br />and wounds on my fingers <br />it got deeper and deeper <br /> <br />never shed my skin <br />never close my coffin <br />like the pain within <br /> <br />is there a way to ease the ache? <br />not for anyone's sake.. <br />before the thread of sanity breaks <br /> <br />...never close my coffin <br />never stop the burning <br />...ache</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br /><strong>try and fail</strong> <br /> <br /><em>I'm afraid to try <br />coz I'm afraid to fail <br />what I do know is <br />your love isn't for sale</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br /><strong>eternity</strong> <br /> <br /><em>come what may <br />however which way <br />forever and a day <br /> <br />until the sun <br />refuse to shine <br />we are one <br /> <br />you and me <br />is all there is <br />for all eternity <br /> <br />we said it would last <br />nothin' can keep us apart <br />now it's whole past <br /> <br />you and me <br />will never be <br />...eternity? <br /> <br />thought it was forever <br />now it's over <br />remember me never... <br /> <br />...eternity?</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br /><strong>dare</strong> <br /> <br /><em>Can you get out <br />of life alive? <br />there's the abyss <br />why won't you dive? <br /> <br />If the world turn <br />it's back on you <br />how would you feel? <br />will you thow <br />sticks on it's back? <br /> <br />If she said rape me again <br />what would you do? <br />Is it fun to see <br />someone in pain? <br /> <br />Can you die <br />without dying?</em> <br />**11*09** <br /> <br /><strong>If only</strong> <br /> <br /><em>If only words could <br />reach your heart <br />without me uttering them <br />If only the wind <br />will carry my whispers <br />and let the breeze <br />sneak into your mind <br />If only I could speak <br />my mind and tell you <br />how much I care <br />Then how easy will it be <br />for me to let you know <br />how I feel <br />and then I could say <br />"I love you!" <br />and it's for real <br />just by touching your face <br /> <br />and if only you'll say <br />fou feel the same way <br />I do... <br />I could tell the world <br />that I want nothing more <br />coz I need no one else <br />but you!</em> <br /> <br />* inspired by Sugar Hiccup <br />** contains excerpts from Asphyx <br /> <br />Rain fell and came down<div class="blogger-post-footer"><img width='1' height='1' src='https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/tracker/5949354-106782830772242657?l=underthebluesky2.blogspot.com' alt='' /></div>Jayhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13505349940327162621noreply@blogger.com